Let
me have it back.
It’s
already lost.
I
still want to find it.
I
still want to have it back in my bag.
You
can get a new one.
I can’t
accept a new one. I want that exact old one.
Exact
one – just like that.
There’s
that other pair that will stay.
I can’t
accept a new one. I’d get that exact one back.
Let me
have it back.
AN
EXACT ONE- JUST LIKE THAT.
Hours ago, I handed her the light-green pair of
earrings and the same face of delight was plastered on her face the moment she
gave me mine. It was a lovely sight to have those blue earrings in my hands. I looked
at them intently and it meant every bit of happy to have them with me. They’re
a pair that I want to keep with me for good.
I arrived home and I was delighted to gaze at my
earrings. I took one and stared at the blue stone and the gold intricate curves
around it. I rummaged for the other one inside my bag. I removed all my things inside
and turned it upside down. Then, I dropped on the floor with a heart break. I
lost the other pair.
My being sentimental stirred the brokenness in
me. Maybe some would not understand, or maybe others would. But my heart is
still breaking for that other pair.
Let
me have it back.
I
still want to find it.
I
still want to have it back in my bag.
AN
EXACT ONE – JUST LIKE THAT.
I cannot
just let go of this attachment in an instant.
Why
does it have to be lost?
Why
in such a short period of time did it disappear?
Why
did it leave its pair alone in the bag?
My
questions are endless; the space here could not contain all that I want to ask.
But
then, I stopped searching.
I kept
the piece of earring left with me and slept.
I awoke
after a number of hours, and then I took the piece left with me again.
Still,
my heart was breaking for its pair.
But I
saw no point in finding a way to have it returned to me.
I saw no
point in finding an exact one just like it.
I saw no
point in not finding a new one.
I saw no
point in looking for and keeping that other pair that didn’t want to stay.
Still,
my heart is breaking for that other pair.
But I
threw away the piece left with me.
Still,
my heart is breaking for that other pair.
But I
made my decision to get a new one.
