Home again

I am a talkative person in my blog entries. I have tendencies to make a novel out of the pettiest events and details in my life. However, my last attempt for a blog entry was during the 1^st week of October. I was not surprised to see that the only word in the document was a title. It was a wordless, plain, blank page.

Things that usually keep me from writing are the busy school life, my inability to put into words the complexity of my thoughts, feelings and situation and my own will not to do so.

 This is the pain in every writer’s heart. To be unable to do what my heart and hand ached to do. To experience grief and regret over days I was not able to take account of. And to realize that my craft along with my blog is starting to rust.

 But joy lies at the realization of what the silence online has brought me: A writer who has learned more to speak to others what was always unspoken. A writer who has realized how things are not always written because they are understood and analyzed.A writer who was equipped with the desire to restore the “write” commitment. A writer who rejoices for the triumph of a blog attempt. And a writer who celebrates for being home again.

What I want for Sembreak

Our 1st semester ended last October 14,2011 (Friday) yet I only felt the real start of our sembreak last October 21,2011 after finishing my term paper in Philippine Literature in English. I've procrastinated again. This and my old ways I hope to leave behind. I look forward to a renewed, refreshed me and a better semester this coming November.

Maybe I was ravenous for S-E-M-B-R-E-A-K that I simply lost control these past few days. I've become lax about almost everything. I've been watching movies, eating a lot, sleeping late and excessively. I felt like a glutton for REST and RELAXATION.

Sadly, this is not how sembreak is intended to function for us. A thought once popped out of my mind:

"Kapag may pasok di malaman kung anong unang gagawin, kapag walang pasok di malaman kung anong pwedeng gawin."

        #irony

Sembreak <3

During school days, we're geared up for battle. We prepare and know exactly that we have foes to fight soon. Yet during vacations like these, we are as if sent to a field without any requirements to fulfill. Thus, we are tempted to simply lie down out in the open, on the grass and gaze at the sky.

Rest isn't bad, relaxing neither, but too much of anything is always unhealthy and unhelpful. Our sembreak will work best for us if we do not lose sight of our focus and goals. Especially that this is not a long time vacation, we have less than a month (particularly for PNUans) to make the most of this opportunity.

We're being asked to relax but stay on guard, rest and prepare, reflect and plan for the fast approaching 2nd semester.

The experimental 1st sem will be the basis of what to do and what not to do for the 2nd sem.

Here's a to-do-list to keep track of a productive, fulfilled and fun vacation, inspired by Ate Joan. :))

WHAT I WANT FOR SEMBREAK:

(B.F.F Balance.Focus. Feasibility)

-  Quality devotional time :)

- Write articles again (at least 2)

- Accomplish Ministry concerns: Fix Sunday School supplies, class record and prayer album

- Read at least 1 book (The Life You've Always Wanted)

- Finalize my Life purpose statement (place them on bookmarks and one for posting)

- Recreation time (watch movies, volleyball and time for exercise!)

- Spend time with family :))

And one thing that I know I need to do, yet I don't really like to do, well, I want to do it because I need to do it... (do you even understand?) Haha.

Simply put, it's this one:

- Read debate handouts and write about "What Debating Does to me"

I'd like to prepare for our Saturday sessions. I know I'm having a hard time on this one so there's a call for hard work. I just said that, HARDWORK, really, for the second semester.

Hoping to fulfill this to-do-list :)

P.S.

THE RULE:

I was inspired by Ate Joan to impose a rule of early sleeping. Every 9:30pm, I'd like to be starting my way to dreamland. :)

Happy Sembreak!