* older sister got a new hair cut
anne (youngest sis): ate abbie, nagmuhkang bata si ate sa gupit niya
me: uu nga, ate para kang 4th year highschool
ate: [no comment siya pero nakangiti (haha)]
me: eh ako ba anne?
anne: ikaw, lagi kang stressed eh....
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so I look old and unhappy right? ...*sobs*
I didn't know I looked and acted that way in front of them. I thought, compared to my senior year, I looked better now, not as stressful like I was before...
It did strike me and made me draw back from every busyness that I had.
I needed to check my study habits and my driving force for everyday living. Did I miss that it's becoming unhealthy?
Though I give time for God and think about Him more often, was it enough to allow Him to really take full control of every single undertaking and move of mine?
Do I keep Him in the pious secret place where we meet, for pious thoughts, feelings and emotions then exclude Him for other business that I have?
Let me share my letter to Him that Sunday night:
Lord, this is going to be one tough night.
Racing to meet deadlines, finishing the things I require myself to accomplish and as I perceive it, it's already tough.
Although, why would I exactly do all these things and as a friend of mine asked, "what is the purpose of living?"
When assignments, projects demand too much, things you need to do and lessons to review pile up, along with other things necessicated by emergencies or needs f the moment.. what keeps you moving?
(Now it's somwewhat an answer that came out as I write, and I believe it came from Him)
When you know you work and live for the purpose of glorifying God and living for Him alone, then no matter what comes your way, you'll not get easily tired. Your mind is set that you live to serve Him in every work that you do.
So when you know you can glorify Him, even as you eat or drink, why hold that rewarding fulfillment when you can, in limitless and infinite ways do the purpose for which you were made?
No freedom is like it when you serve the purpose of your life. Liberation alone comes from being able to move about in the sole reason of your existence - to do what pleases HIm and makes the Him smile. This is what I truly desire...
*"I will refresh the weary and satisfy the faint." Jeremiah 31: 25 (Sunday word) 
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