To Mr. God's Adam for me (A Love Letter Via Blog)

April 28, 2011, Thursday

07:47 AM

         To Mr. God's Adam for me,

  

                                    These days have been a battle for me,

                                    I have been chasing the wants of my tricky heart

                                    For a while, I have been out of control

                                    There is a longing deep inside of me

                                    A company, affection - I so want to pursue

                                    And when I paused and stopped

                                    I asked of God's grace and for Him to be in control

                                    I see moments of painful waiting

                                    I have learned the wrong way of a relationship

                                    And I greatly dream to make my second and last right

                                    I thought I have been moving on, doing fine

                                    But there were still some pitfalls along the way

                                    And more unseen ones ahead of me...

                This morning, as I am writing this, the Lord has a message for you and me. It is the very reason I wrote to you. (Though I'm not quite sure if you could really read this)

                 He impressed on me to give you to Him and let you give me to Him. 

              We are to surrender with trust to the love story He's creating for us, that He'll make us meet, grow in love with each other and with Him in the most beautiful way and time we could never comprehend nor fathom now.

                 Writing or even making doodles of our love story now would spoil all that beauty!

                For now, He seeks we keep guarding our hearts and keep pleading for His grace to help us do so.

                 As Mr. Jim Elliot put it, "Let not our longing slay the appetite of our living."

                 Let us wholeheartedly serve God and focus on His purpose for us this time.

     P.S.

                Our hearts spent in singleness are made to be wholly His.

In love with you in His time,

Ms. God's Eve for you

 :)

All Out of Love

       Far from the melancholy guy that could be singing the lyrics "I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you.." in a drunk vision is the idea that the above "All Out of Love" gives.

     It is far from brokenness and desperation. It is out of the abundance of immense affection and care, a deep concern and a very special devotion.

       The DVBS - Daily Vacation Bible School last April 11-16,2011 at Church of God, Marilag Subdivision with the motif of American Indians and the theme "Dancing in the Son" spells the sole purpose of it all - All out of love for the SON.

        The teachers and all the volunteers of the DVBS - with their commitment all out of love for God and for the children.

      More than 700 graduates of the event - all out of their new-found love for their Best Friend and the Best Gift they could have.

        And God all out of love for the people behind the program and all the children made the event possible and successful.

        To note, I had some dilemma at the beginning of the week. I was a novice, a rookie, a newbie or whatever inexperienced term for a first timer like me in the field of decorating an entire room. I was thinking so hard of it that I even dreamed of decorations all the way on my slumber! I also felt fatigue and weariness inside of me, that is - I found myself work-centered and not God-centered. For the starting days, I had barely slept. I knew something was wrong. I was not soaring like an eagle that does not faint. I was lagging behind. 

         But these trying times drove me to seek God all the more.

         These were the insights He impressed on me as I was writing on my journal:

        "At the same time exhaustion cries loudly inside of you, God cries harder wanting you to listen to Him. He speaks 'You have been needlessly carrying all the load yourself, when My hand all along is waiting for you to throw it all to me!'"

                  

               "It is an honor and a privilege to walk with and for God. The more and the harder the responsibility He gives, only means He trusts you. Discover that He has shaped you for these. Trust in Him for You are shaped to be extraordinarily great with your Extraordinary Daddy."

               "The longer time you are needed to work, busy schedules for ministry, REJOICE! It is your overtime fellowship and team work with our God."

               

                 "What joy uncontainable and indescribable is it to work all for my God?

                   The God I dearly love, praise, exalt and adore?

                  What endless spring of peace , of strength, of gratefulness when my focus is on my Creator, the reason why I live?"

 

                 "What wonders of God when you feel and see how He guides your every step and decisions. When He leads your path and guards you with His angles. What all-knowing and Almighty God to intricately design every single happening in every single day of our lives - all working for our good- as we are called according to His purpose.

   The appeal that came from Him was: 

 

                May we be reminded that we are so privileged and honored to work for the King of kings in the advancement of His kingdom. We are given the noble, sacred job to lay the foundation of Christ in the next generation. These children are the future workers, leaders, teachers, evangelists, pastors, worship leaders - they are the future church. We have been called as vessels of God for Him to plant the seeds of faith in these young hearts, and their salvation for eternity. It is a serious, delicate job to be responsible for these children - fro without them, how can God's kingdom go on? But God strengthens with more than the weight of our responsibility. We trust Him and entrust Him this heavy but POSSIBLE undertaking.

                 But the bottom line is that the DVBS that had taken place, and all other activities for God's kingdom ought to have no other foundation but all out of love for God and love for others. That is the immense affection and care, a deep concern and a very special devotion.

                     * I dearly thank God - He revealed me the passion of my heart - teaching. I'm continuing to fall for you..... Sunday School Ministry :)

                      * Needed to type this for encouragement in the coming DVBS in Lalaan (Head Teacher novice! O__O)

Sa Wika ng Aking Lupang Sinilangan [Tagalog ito :D]

     Kay Hirap Maging Ina

  

    Ang minsang naging banat ni nanay noong naging mapili kami sa pagkain: "Kung ayaw ninyo nang ulam, mamatay kayo sa gutom!"

    Hindi naman brutal si ina, mapagbiro lang talaga sa madalang na panahon. At sa pagkakasakit ninya noong nakalipas pa na linggo, naisip kong hindi nga talaga biro ang kanyang mga trabaho sa bahay. Kaya nga pala hindi na kami dapat pang maging pihikan sa ulam. :)

    Para sa listahan ng mga habilin ni ina na aking natutunan:

 Mag-gayat ng sibuyas, bawang, luya. Tunay ngang nakakapagpaiyak si sibuyas! 

 Pag-kuha ng papaya sa puno. Hindi ko naman talaga inakyat ang puno, sinungkit lang namin ni kuya yung papaya.

 Pag-gigisa

 Pag-luluto ng Tinola (Mas masarap palang kumain 'pag ikaw ang nagluto!)

 Mag-saing ng hindi sunog o hilaw :D

 Mag-luto ng noodles (para yan kay nanay :)

      At sa lahat ng ito, isa lang ang nasabi ko kay ate, "Kay hirap maging ina" Naisip ko din lang na kaya ayaw ko palang mag-luto ay dahil sa tantsa-tantsa ng mga ingredients. Para bang napakatechnical ko. "Nay dapat ba ganito? Ilang cups ng tubig dapat?" Narealize ko na dapat palang mag-experiment at maging maparaan. Walang perpektong sangkap para sa perpektong ihahain. Ang susi ay gumawa ng para sa ikabubuti hindi sa ikapeperpekto ng lahat.

     Isa lang talaga yung 'di ko natutunan kasi si Anne na ang gumawa:

 Pamamalengke

    Ito ang aking susunod na misyon! :D

    Kay hirap ngang maging ina. Kaya kahit hindi Mother's day, daughters (o kahit sons) we ought to give back! (Parang American Idol gives back lang :) Tulungan natin ang mga ilaw ng ating tahanan ngayong bakasyon.

    Nakatulong ka na, natuto pa at napangiti pa si Nanay ( plus si Lord ) 

    PI-YA-NO PAANO?

    Hindi ako isang henyo sa musika, isa lamang hamak na nag-aasam na mag-aral nito. Nang  tinuruan ako ng isang henyo dito (Si Kuya Chad) marami akong naging mga repleksyon:

    Una (1) Lahtat pala ng natutunan natin noong elementarya, sekondarya at kahit ngayong kolehiyo ay nag-kokontirbyut sa mga bagay na gusto pa nating matutunan sa hinaharap.

    *Yung Every-Good-Boy-Does-Fine (EGBDF) AT Father-Always-Come-Early (FACE) - elementary.

      *Nung high school ako nag-simulang maging curious sa piano. 

      Natutunan kong tumugtog.........................

      Ng do-re-mi, happy birthday, twinkle twinle little star, london bridge, (HAHA. :D)

     *Ngayong kolehiyo naman napag-aralan namin sa Humanities ang chords.

     At bawat piraso ng kaalaman na iyon, kapag pinagtagpi-tagpi pala ay makabubuo ng isang damit ng mas malawak na kaalaman. Isa sa mas malawak na kaalaman na iyon ay ang pag-aaral ko ng piano :))

     Ikalawa (2) Kung minsan, dahil sa mga dapat pa nating matutunan, nakalilimutan na nating i-appreciate o itangkilik? (haha) ang mga natutunan na natin. Masyado kong gustong matutunan yung komplikado tapos hindi pa ako nakapag-papasalamat- ang layo na rin naman ng kaalamang narating ko! 

     Ikatlo (3) Minsan, pag may natututunan na tayomg isang bagay, hindi na tayo malayo sa isang sakit. HYDROCEPHALUS - Sa tagalog, labis na pag-laki ng ulo.

     Yung tipong, "Wow! Ang galing ko na! Marunong na ko!" Pero sa oras na iyon dapat tayong maging mapanuri.

     " Kanino ba nganggaling ang kamay ko, ang utak ko, ang kakayahan ko, ang bawat hininga at mismong buhay ko?"

     Dito babalik sa ayos ang lahat. "Wala ako dito kundi dahil sa Lumikha sa akin at hindi ako lilikha nang musika at kung ano pa man kung hindi para sa Kanya."

    Ikaapat (4) Ito ay nasa wikang Ingles (pagbigayan na natin ang mga Amerikano :D)

    3Ps = Practice + Patience + Passion

              Praktis + Pasensya + Pasyon ? (Parang ibang pasyon ata iyon ah. Haha!)

   

    Iyan ang tatlong naisip kong sangkap sa pag-aaral ing isang bagay at syempre dapat nangingibabaw ang TAMANG motibo. (para sa Kanya)

    MARUNONG KA - HIGIT PA SA INAAKALA MO!

    Noong nasa high school pa ako, inuutusan ako ng titser ko na mag-lettering. Ang sabi ko agad "Hindi ko po kaya iyan, ginagaya ko lang po pero hindi ko po talaga alam kung paano 'yan gawin."

    Bigla ko itong naalala ng tinitingan ko ang banner namin para sa DVBS (Daily Vacation Bible School) Tila naisip ko, "Sang banda hindi ko nakaya? " 

    Napaisip tuloy ako. Ang lagi kong sinsabing hindi ko kayang gawin, dahil lagi kong pinapraktis sa school at Sunday School- kaya ko na rin!

    At ang isa pa ring nakagugulat- kaya ko rin naman palang mag-drawing kung susubukan ko!

    Sabi nga ni Pastor Obet, "God created us fully LOADED." Kinargahan tayo ng napakaraming talento na kinakailangan nating madiskubre. At siyempre ito lamang ay posible sa pagtanggap at pag-hawak natin ng responsibilidad.

   PANGWAKAS

   Sa Ingles:  A notable thing to do a day,

                    Keeps the nonsense and wasted time away.

   Ang bakasyon ay talgang hindi dapat sayangin, Hindi lang 'to panahon ng pagpapahinga kindi panahon para matuto pa! :))

   

No to S-O-L-O

             This vacation, being caught idle lying in your bed, wondering what to do next isn't a new picture. And when you look at your phone - seeing no text messages from anyone or worse - alone in the house - what is most likely to happen next? You would then find some medium to be able to connect to people: chat on Internet, text your friends or find some place to go to find someone to talk to. And yes, it's all because it's no fun to feel all alone.

             One not-idle-therefore-busy-day that I had, I was to pressured by the amount of tasks to be done. (I didn't know vacations had a hectic schedule too :O) I was about to have my devotion, but I felt alone and alone with my piling tasks.

             Funny, the lyrics "I don''t wanna go S - O - L - O" from a famous song heard nearly everywhere (bus, jeepney, mall and etc.) rang in my mind.

             Well, society today indeed shows us - we need company. And it made me see the clearer picture why more and more teen-agers change their status from single to in-a-relationship on facebook or join themselves in "tropas", "barakadas" or whatever names we call it.

             The bottom line is: We don't want to walk this earth S-O-L-O!

             And I then came to my senses: "So did God!"

             What I wrote in my journal was: "God doesn't want us to walk the earth S-O-L-O! He desires us to team up with Him!

              The insight as if opened my eyes to a gift I had all along but I never noticed nor opened! I was slapped on my face feeling like a fool who has finally gained wisdom.

               It was needless to feel all alone, to do all things alone when God wants to be with you and do all things together with you!

               It is a privilege we so often neglect and overlook as Christians - having to work with the King of kings.

               But I then wrote in my journal: "How is it really to team up with an unseen God?"

               I was led to one truth: We cannot see God, but His works and words are plainly evident. (Mark 12:24)

              (1) Words - Proverbs 4:13 says "Keep hold of instruction, do not let go, guard her, for she is your life."
                             
               The verse gives us the practical responsibility to remind ourselves of His words from time to time and to never let go of it. That is the very way for an effective team-up with Him: not leaving Him by not leaving His Word behind.

              (2) Works - A marvelous, unseen Hand is at work in every moment of our lives and it is the Lord's. (Romans 8:28)
                             - God is faithful in completing what He has started in us. (Philippians 1:6)
                             - Our Great Team Mate can do more than we ever ask or imagine! (Ephesians 3:20)
              
              Here is a world where people can leave and disappoint us, and where we have unlimited limits.

              As one entry in my journal put it:
       
              End of self = liberation
              It takes a point of self bankruptcy to realize you can never do it on your own. Be done away with trusting yourself, it will only hurt you. You need grace, you need none but Jesus.

              God brings us to a point of foolishness only His wisdom can suffice.

              God desires to be your everyday Team Mate so it's needless to walk the earth S-O-L-O.

              " John 15:5 I am the vine, you are the branches, He who abides in me and I in him will bear much fruit. Apart from me you can do nothing."

Dig Not Your Own Grave

            Have you ever experienced being lost in an unfamiliar place and it took you all your strength and efforts to finally find your way back? And isn't it plain folly to go back to that now familiar place and go about leading yourself astray again? It is as if you  do not know EXACTLY the right way to go.

            My mind has been bogged lately by the thought that we do learn things the hard way. Slow learners who as if ride a carousel of committing the same mistakes over again.
          
            And the same cycle goes that we neglect what God says we should do, inflicting compromise, feelings of guilt and uneasiness on ourselves and to others.
 
            From your past, what has God dealt with you and He has told you to put death and you find yourself unconsciously resurrecting? What selfish I-want-to-do-list have you been indulging yourself in?

            They say: Old habits die hard; I say: Those who don't get rid of them die easily. How we often dig our own way back to doing things we should not; thus - digging our own grave. Grave - that leads us into death again than the Life Christ desires for us to have.

            And yes, it is an undisputed cycle wherein we get back to our knees in repentance, saying "Lord... I'm sorry, please forgive me."

            The lyrics of the song "From the Inside Out" by Hillsong can be a source of encouragement.

            "A thousand times I've failed,
             Still Your mercy remains
             And should I stumble again,
             I'm caught in Your grace

             It is comforting to be reminded how our Father is very much patient with us and our hardheadedness.

             But I was reminded of one entry on my journal with a sticker of Doraemon geared up for a baseball game, it wrote:

                                          B A C K  TO THE G A M E
              No backing down. No idle time. Time is running. It doesn't wait for anyone.
              I knew I needed to wake up and press on!

              It reaffirmed God's recent impression on me:

              All things in this world, all its pleasures, even the desires and emotions that we have are fleeting and temporary. We invest on things that are of eternal significance.

              It was a heavy message from God to let us see: the end times are not far. It is not to be taken lightly when the current happenings and phenomena second the revelation.

              How have you been storing up riches in heaven? How is your ministry doing? How have you been fulfilling God's purpose in your life? How about the lost souls around you? Or how about your own salvation?

               How are you gonna live in the light of eternity?

            Now is not the time to settle for a carousel of disobedience and double-mindedness, or on digging your way back to your old, dead self. Now is the time to get geared up, back to the game, back to what's important to Him, to what's gonna last forever, to His-to-do-list for you.

               Dig not your own grave, the end is not far.  

 

Blessed, happy 1st =)

It's the first day of the month and my first time to open my multiply account. (after a very long time!)

I'm quite sad my last entry dated back last July 2010
and today is April 1, 2011. (whoa!)

Many things happened, and most of them is confided on my keepsake,  a bloody, random, diary. :O

Yet it's never that bad, God will give me a greater number of years to write again.

And if ever you stopped doing something you know you were created to do, let's get back on track. It is the one thing that God wants us to keep on doing and it's that thing that's gonna last forever!

Let His Grace keep you running back in the race (as He always keeps me).

Blessed, happy 1st=)